2016

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

السَّلاَمُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَاتُهُ

It has been 6 years of life without blogging, i have been weakened by dunya. A wrong date to wish everyone salam maulidur Rasul. I didnt have the chance to greet in this blog during the date so i will share my stories here that i encountered during the Prophet Muhammad ‘صلى الله عليه وسلم celebration.

 

So a public holiday, to anyone was just another holiday benefit,to us muslims, its more than only that. It was the day our beloved Prophet Muhammad ‘صلى الله عليه وسلم was born. I did my regular day at the barber shop as i was on leave on my day job since the 8th of December. Unfortunately i did not went for my maulud walk. I couldn't sleep the night before the maulud happened. I thought alot to myself that night. I have been astray for so long that i realized i wasn't the muslim i was before. I was more careless, i was lost in so many ways. There came a time where i felt only Allah was the only one i can turn to. Then i turned to people instead, padahal Allah lagi maha mendengar dan memahami apa yang ku runsingkan.

The very night when Maulud entered, i realized i did not do so much to remind myself about Rasulullah ‘صلى الله عليه وسلم, i felt really bad for that. I loved Rasulullah ‘صلى الله عليه وسلم but living his sunnah kadang2 inda ketani tebuat apa lagi hidup macam kedia. I got home past 1 am after i spent time with Bryant and all the guys from the barbershop, Bryant was making a tattoo at the time, some of the other guys were drinking. I sat there to my thinking,innocently just hanging out. Eventhough i didn't do any of those, still i felt bad,that i knew i should be elsewhere at the time. I should spend my night doing dikir at the Masjid. How am I celebrating one of the big events in Islam instead?

I went home, i did my Isya and i just felt like doing a two rakaat solat with the intention of my respects and apologies to Allah and our beloved prophet, for all the things that i have done in that matter. For always forgetting how Rasullullah ‘صلى الله عليه وسلم sacrificed alot! alooottt i tell you, for each and every one of us. I somehow push myself to get back into blogging because of this one friend lah who i always get inspired from reading her blog. I wish that you will get on blogging soon! :D 

So back to our Prophet, like i ever posted a ceramah by Ustaz Abdullah Khairi back in my previous blog posts, he opened my eyes to how i never saw Rasulullah
‘صلى الله عليه وسلم before. I never realized how much of a big deal Prophet Muhammad
‘صلى الله عليه وسلم was until he served the khutbah jumaat which brought me to tears. Islam adalah sebaik2 agama, segala yang terjadi berlandas kan Islam adalah sesuatu yang menunju ke arah kebaikan. All we had to do was put faith in Allah's timing, Allah's plan for us, live our lives according to the sunnah, because Allah sent us our beloved messenger as the perfect example. Its impossible to really live up to his values, but his sunnahs are achievable. I know so little about his ways of living until i met a good friend last year who was living daily basis off the sunnah of Rasulullah ‘صلى الله عليه وسلم. And so i wanted to learn more about our Prophet. Sadly at the time I was at a weak state in terms of Iman and i was deprived of motivation.

Its better to get back on track sooner or later than never. This blog post will be the fresh start of my journey. I wish to find hidayah in this hunt. I wish that all the people i meet in 2016 will bring me to the path of Allah. Oh Allah i have been missing you. I have been caught up with dunya that I wasn't communicating with you properly. Allah is indeed the most merciful. I hope this post will go on. Wassalam.